my endorphin level is damn high today. i must be in a state of denial coz i have no design at all n submission is less than a week away. @!f)&*%# spent 6 hrs in studio but achieve (sadly) nothing (sadly, again) ...floated about the entire place, talking to people, surfing the net, watching stupid videos (check out this website http://www.stupidvideos.com) the only consolation of the nite is nick, carlin n justin visited!! grinz... that has gotta be the highlight of the nite man!it's always nice to have ur pals to pop by when studio's so gloomy...

anyway fei4 hua4 shao3 shuo1... i should sleep now....
then churn out some designs during the break betw steph's dance n piecing. hmmm or maybe i should sleep during tt break.....? oh well i'm a pig.

oh yes... dear nick, sorry i cant make it for the ball. have a good time with hao peng you =)

......................just showered after dance. hmph. dun like the choreo. always picking on me. ya la i'm reluctant to execute the steps in tt yucky uncoordinbated zombified manner.. but y the hell is she picking on my steps all the time (no she doesn't call my name out... just tt she watches me all the time n picks my mistakes to point out to dancers later. as if i'm the embodiment of wrongs. crap.) i guess coz it's related to the fact tt i know her background in nanyang. oh well.

think i must learn to be more resolute in relationships with pple. just b'coz pple talk as if they r in the right of the way (aka i m the boss) when they r obviously not, i actually give way. how screwed up is tt?! worst part is even though i give way to these so-called bullies all so often, sometimes others get the impression tt i'm being difficult! how yuan1 wang4!! argh.... facts of life. *grumble grumble*

hmmm should go studio soon..... after eating my apple

just checked the league's blog. reminded of the so-called quarrel n spats betw some of the s7clubbers. wat i m most unpleased with is the seemingly frank and truthful open confrontation betw them. it may feel knightly n honest, the correct way to go, but the fact is it's highly strenuous. worst part being after the spats the relationship will be permanently changed/damaged. it is terribly childish in my opinion. a more experienced bird will never do so. subtlety pls.

it's BU lecture now.... thermal lecture, insulation, thermal comfort wateva wateva wateva. thanx to nice kelvin who kindly lent me his laptop.

extremely tired... even the previous line i typed, i had to retype many portions to get rid of typos. sian.

shall skip genes lect, go back to sleep.... zzzzzzzzzzzz

just came back from supper with matt. dance ended at 1.40am again! By the time i showered n settled down it was 2.10am. boil water pack go for supper 2.40am. sian.

tomorrow shall stay in studio after genes lect to think of the concept of design. sian... wat is concept. wat is approach, technique, idea, craft? .....betta sleep now... i cant even bring myself to consider the qns...

damn it

3.20am already... 6hrs 25min away from meeting fong. I have absolutely NO design, NO sleep, NO energy and i'm starving. dance ended at 1.40am(again!). after which i ran back to my room... only to do wat? do up stupid mars bar banners for sde day! freak! i m coming to sch for archi or CCAs?!? argh. design design design...!!

miss nick n carlin! loong time since i've seen them. esp nick!!! my aki kaki!! n suay suay dun tik i can make it for their comm parade. =( sigh.

hum just finished a session of dance... hmmm should i go for lynda's rehearsal at 5pm? or tell her i have studio till 6pm??? hum.... crazy lah. tomorrow's piecing's at 7pm. knowing eusoff seniors, prob will end at 11pm. by tt time i'll be dead tired, no way of going back to studio to work my design out. =(

toking abt design i'm so dead. nothing. absolutely nothing done this cny. watch me die man. tik i'll end up with a C this crit at the rate i'm going. funny how i cant seem to get the momentum out. technically speaking, i've done only 5% of wat's required of me. and i've only done 30% of wat my peers have done. damn. someone bless me man.