You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.


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weee... quizilla's fun. i get to post pictures. (how boring it'll be if my blog's just words)

i'm touched that a no. of aki friends replied, msged n called wif regards to my p1 grade post. a sincere thanks... thank u! =)haha.... in fact, i was kinda shocked that pple do read my blog =P

well i'm over the grade thing. afterall i did expect this. it's not that i dun deserve tt.

in fact, after much tot, it seems that i'm more worried abt whether i can perform again? esp under this fishball eye guy. (ah sorry for being disrespectful) hmmm somewhat doubtful n lacking in confidence now. =( but of coz i'll keep trying n do my best. (since there's no dance i shouldn't have excuse anymore~)

=) once again thanks...

Pirates of the Caribbean!


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cool

went for eusoff bash yesterday night, n took some cold n cough medicine before i slept. suspect i got a really good rest coz of the drowsy medicine...

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i felt recharged in the day n there was a possibility tt i was going to be able to retrieve the momentum i lost since last sem... but now, guess not.

gloria n i spoke abt religion n christianity n other stuff over dinner. it kinda soaked my brain with spiritually draining stuff...

then came the blow when i checked e-mail. p1 grade's terrible. it was exactly as expected but i can't help feeling glum coz u have to admit it's a terrible grade. u know, like how ur heart will kinda ache with this wrenching feeling? n u just lose the ability to smile or speak. all u can do is exhale ur grief? (ok, kinda exaggerating here but thereabouts) some may say i'm taking it too hard. but can't help it. performing for studio is impt to me coz it's my interest. i get especially frustrated when i know my performance was way below my normal standard. sigh...........

Bring It On!


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TAS

i love TAS.

yeah u heard me. i love TAS.

i like what i do in tas, albeit to some (fluffy, jj and gang) it's sai2 gang1. i like doing such organisational stuff, esp when it's for archi, for my friends n peers.

secondly, u get to know more seniors n get a better picture of how the school works. quite cool.

thirdly, the working environment in TAS is really fun n relaxing. no forcing like eusoff.

lastly, prob most imptly, it's damn slack. haha.....

bottom line, TAS's something i enjoy doing.

if anyone's following my posts, i must come across as a damn fickled person. extreme mood swinger.

i'm a lot happier now coz i no longer have gastric (eating noodles now), i have MORE than enuff points to stay in hall (can u imagine??? TAS and aki FOC gave me 39 pts?! haha... cool....), and i'm no longer obliged to do eusoff rag for points, but purely for interest. yeah

at least there's a bit of success in my life now....

now, i just have to decide if i wanna join rag. huisiang's really nice n i'll feel bad rejecting his 'recruitment'. o well..... i'll sleep on it.... after my noodles....

wat's wrong with me. i really wonder. since the start of sem, i can't get down to doing my sch work... and everything seems to be culminating now. everything seems to be building up over the past few days. result being i'm evolving into this horrible malicious figure i m sure i was never.

i say mean things, give faces (sorry gosu), i lose my cool super easily (sorry chok, even though U r the problem) --> [see i'm saying mean things again], i continue to probe and say lousy stuff even though i know it makes it awkward for people (sorry piggy) and i dun care when people need help. ... ... argh... ... i hate being like this. hate being so rotten. people i care for get offended, and my lousy performance hinders their progress.

incredibly drained. feel it in my body, my mind n heart. what people see day to day could easily pass off as a zombie with a 'bubbly' front. someone please just tell me what's wrong

sitting at my table in my room, listening to the hell riders racing down the road, the SBS buses rumbling away, wondering what i should do....

have been kinda lost this weekend... floating abt, adrift. achieved nothing again. i know i have tonnes of work to do but i can't seem to get down to any of them. maybe coz none of them r urgent -> in that they r needed by tomorrow. and if i do start on one, which assignment or module? coz all of them seem to have the same deadlines.... sigh. so much work so little time.

design site is a problem. as usual, i have a problem with deciding. i realise i always ponder n wonder, tik to n fro, take eons to settle on one option. and most of the time, if not all the time, i just revert back to my first decision. crap rite? waste so much time along the way. and the final decision is usually a lousy one. rubbish. feels so haphazard.

hmmm yah. haphazard's the word. this semester has been a mess. feels like an wu4 da3 wu4 zhuang4 scenario where i just take it as it comes. even when submissions r nearing n my "in" tray is tipping the scale, i'll still be happily in my own world.... in the end, lousy work submitted. crap. tt sucks. it's always terrible when u dun put in all ur effort into a piece of work then submit something of terrible standard. (like my recent genes n soc test which i shall not talk abt anymore.... =< )

anyway, shall just not do anything tonight and sleep. if i cant get down to doing anything i rather just sleep. at least i know it's not a waste of time (contrary to what my mom believes)

dead tired.... just came back from ar1326 "site visit". went to capital square to look at spider clamp truss system. (amazing... every member went) and yesterday i went to the zoo, then the botanical gardens. crazy life... travelling travelling travelling. my poor digi cam.

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was just thinking abt wat ssquirrel said abt me being a personal space person. hmmm i guess i understand wat tt means (after so long). as much as i like to know many people and get to know them better, there is a limit to the level of closeness. (hmm something like tay kheng soon's proxemics n comfort) unless i agree to the degree of closeness in the friendship, i will not allow pple to "intrude" my life (which includes tagging, kpo-ing abt my life, calling etc.). i'll get terribly irritated coz of the loss in privacy and freedom. which explains my occasional ignore mode. in extreme cases, ignore mode is a reflection of anger. after all, when i m truly angry, i become super quiet and bo chup.

hmm.... thinking abt all this makes me very appreciative of sclub7. the no-strings-attached, comfortable relationship is something really worth treasuring. i would say the same for arf and crab too... though crab's in UK now (how r u girl? take care and be happy!)

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ok tt's a lot to blog on for a nite. quite a bit on personal stuff. anyway, devil's bar anyone??? for those interested in bar top dancing and hot couple dances (guoyi!!! i'll remem the yogurt la), pls make ur way down to our preview bash!!! u won't regret! (bottom line: buy tickets from ME!!)

Eusoff Hall D&D Bash @ Devil's Bar
24th Feb '04, Tues
$16 incl. 2 drinks!

comon comon!! it'll be great fun. It's our pageant preview so come down n check out the hunks and babes!


Eusoff DnD

hmmm suffering from severe handbrake syndrome... cant seem to get started. my work is piling up n they r right beside me (literally).... i've a test this week, i've skipped abt half the lectures and i cant be bothered to find out wat will be covered in the test. how brilliant huh... sometimes i just amaze myself at how laid back i can be.... epitome of slack man...

ok... maybe i should list what i should do...

1. pack stuff, organise and get a timetable thing out
2. return lib books
3. catch up on building science lect
4. for goodness sake, start watching geog lect! finish the lectures by this week?
5. genes n soc. study for the test pls.
6. building lab report, time to get to know ur bre grp mates. sheesh.
7. aki construction project (thanx guoyi, for being such a responsible grp rep)
8. geog project - let's go to sentosa man!!
9. design design design design design...

okie.. shall complain abt the irritating sandfly bites on my left foot n right calf again. terrible stuff sandflies r made of. tiny things, but huge trouble n agony. somehow the bites r a lot worse than the 20+ bites from OBS. they're kinda infected. (shall not go into details... yucky) ...there's something wrong with eusoff... first the bees attack me in my room at 5am in the mornin, then the sandflies bite me when i'm walking to dance studio. so suay.

have been surfing around for the past 4 hours... aimlessly. cant seem to get down to doing my work. worse still, there's nothing interesting on the net. and no one adds comments on my blog!! argh... so dear visitor, if u r reading this, pls comment yah?

woohoo~ DP has ended!! it was a brilliant production!! the spirit was damn high and you could really feel some genuine togetherness and team spirit. =D

i guess it was disappointing that it wasn't full house. the third floor was empty and only the centre block of second floor was filled. carlin was criting like simon of american idol, with justin second in place in terms of pickiness. after seeing my many other dance competitions and concerts, they felt that eusoff dp was lack lustre. pple can't dance and the basic 'on time' part is terrible. but i guess tt's a fact tt we have to accept. more than half of the pple in dp have no dance background. not even dance as ECA like me. (btw i'm considered not good lah) on the other hand aki pple and joel said was pretty good. and joel have seen me danced since sec 1 so i guess it must be alright. =P

it's late and i'm starting to type incoherently. should go shower and remove the remaining eyeliner (yuck). still have site visit at 33Bjln hock chye tomorrow at 9. hum. near ju's place.

oki. nite

brilliant. i misplaced my room keys. think i left them at UCC. wat a situation it was when i couldn't find it when i returned to my room. luckily good o'weiyi had a duplicate key. phew! =) betta find it tomorrow man....

i suck at politics. n i m amazed at how pple play it so well.

i look forward to dance this friday...

i just had my first dance session after crit. woah... the feeling's great! to dance n have fun without thinking about work is fabulous! and of course, now tt i can actually be bothered to see how sucky i am at the dances, i goota buck up!!! i actually forget steps! 3 days b4 performance! best...

yippee... crit's over. left my dance to tackle. (gotta make sure i dun make silly mistakes on stage)

hmmm tik i didn't do well for p1. (tt's an understatement) my design and work submitted was really below standard. feel quite angry at myself for not reaching my normal standard. i could easily use dance as an excuse but is tt really the case...? hmmm i guess it definitely was a large factor coz i had significantly less time and energy to go on.... but i tik it was possible for me to juggle both well. =(

...i rather a life tt's busy and full of ups n downs n downs. (yeah u heard me) in tt sense i'm a sucker for stress (hey cris sounds familiar? =P) i rather an experience i'll remem than a smooth-sailing one tt i'll forget... sigh... quirky mood again.

amazing how sleep is the primary concern in all my posts. and damn sad tt aki students r sleep deprived.